Emotional affair, how can i tell if its worth waiting for ?

Dear, this is coming from one who made the mistakes you are currently making. I was involved in a extra-marital affair with a co worker, and continued it for 5 yrs. It cost me my job, my reputation, and my self esteem. If you want to endure those, then continue the affair, if you stop now, there has been no physical cheating, only emotional, and you can remain in your marriage with a semi clear conscience. If your marriage is not what you want, then divorce him, and seek a meaningful relationship with a man that isn't married. You and him are only "playing a game" now, but since he is against completely breaking his marriage vows and divorcing then he probably will never do it. We men are ones who tend to play games to bolster our ego's! Women will usually make a decision and stick with it. Good luck!